WHAT DOES THIS FEELING?

Lately, I couldn't stop myself from crying. I never know why did all this happened to me. I just can't be as tough as I used to be. There must be something that'll make me cry or at least, make me wanna cry. I just want myself that I used to be. I don't to be a weak girl throughout this life because I know that the journey of this life is still long. If I keep on crying now, I will end up this long journey with tears. I never want that to happen. 

Maybe this missing feels result in this condition. I really wish that there's someone here, in my heart that can help me to go through everything. I don't wanna cry anymore. I wanna stop this tears. I don't wanna waste it. 

Dear God, I seek for your help. I don't wanna stay in this way. I must be a strong girl. It is for the sake of everyone that I love. It is for the sake of my life, now and forever. 

I WISH YOU WERE HERE......